an unread post

Since I know this is not going to be read then I know that this is a rather safe place to post up whatever is going on through my head right now. And honestly I really don’t know what is going on in my head right now… all I know is that last week I was doing okay and then something snapped in it and I’ve been driven into the weird depression that is getting really annoying. Maybe there was something else that led up to it but the breaking point came when a co-worker “resigned” from our company and sort of left me holding this ERP rollout to deal with on my own. That coupled with someone else leaving after I went out of my way to bring her within the company… so, yeah. It’s been a hell of a week. I don’t know what will snap me out of it… I’m just going through the motions of faking being happy. Folks are asking what’s wrong and I’m lying to them. “Huh? Nothing… was just concentrating on something.”

As for co-worker #1, he’s not leaving now… but got some sort of negotiated deal. Meanwhile. I’ve been here for almost 10 years and I’ve not seen one fuckin’ change to my deal.

And co-worker #2 is posting up on elsewhere how awesome her new job is. Pretty much rubbing it in my face.

I’m done… turn off social media… ignore text messages… ignore phone calls… ignore emails.